ever had one of those days?

ever only been surrounded by girls with boyfriends, or with girls that remind you that your only their friend. its a bitch. i shot myself with a dart gun yesterday, to just simulate suicide. i tried to go to DION today. well actually i did, but i got there early, and everyone else was late.. well i was tooo early, and got burnt, and didnt have my phone.

i dont know what my options are. things are soo difficult. help is so far and few between. I HATE THE HEAT. is it wrong to be attracted to girls that arent attracted to you?